Laughter Through Tears

It's amazing how some shows can be, like, not even about politics at all. And yet there are all these deeply ingrained assumptions, and they're buried so deep if you even mention them people look at you like you've grown a second head.

I watched one episode of Limitless. I'm not sure why, I was just looking for something mind-numbing and it happened to be there. I can't even put a finger on what pisses me off about this show. Rather, I'm not sure I could trace out every last thing about this show that so, so irredeemably messed up. And I'm not even talking about the broken facts, or the infuriating repetition of the whole "100% of your brain" myth.

Still, it's much more comfortable than being angry about other things, and it is the weekend.

I read historical romances once in a blue moon, when I have a craving for three hundred pages of their particular brand of frustration. Earlier in the weekend I picked one up on half a whim and have been tearing through it ever since. With some breaks.

Pro: crossdressing, briefly.

Con: heroine has that obnoxious protagonistic habit of insisting, over and over, that she's not pretty.

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My nail care routine is such a disaster. I feel like I've basically spent four years trying to quit biting my nails, and it never quite takes. Pretty colors don't seem to be quite enough of a motivator. Even when I'm biting and I catch myself and tell myself to stop, that message somehow doesn't seem to reach the right part of my brain.

Right now my main problem is that I don't want to study because the material is boring and I don't care about this test.

I'm also feeling a bit of push back because the therapist seemed very insistent about me not letting this one slide with a sixty and I got a really YOU'RE THROWING YOUR FUTURE AWAY vibe from her. I might be projecting, there's no way to tell.

I posted "the Margaret Atwood" on a thread about geek dating and my comment received two downvotes. I shall wear them with pride.

Then they went on to talk about how pretty girls never have any problems. #misandry4lyfe

How do I not have a panic attack about the possibility of failing a class because of a communication breakdown that has nothing to do with all the work I did for it or everything I learned?

( These are all the ideas I had )

I bear a completely irrational and disproportionate hate for the psychology textbook I'm reading right now, and it's making it hard to complete my assignment. Maybe it's because this chapter reads so much like a terrible new age pop-sci book about relationships and the power of lurve. For crying out loud, you do not need a freaking biology degree to know that there are no feelings in the heart. It's an organ that pumps blood. No, I do not accept that this is a metaphor. No, you are a psychologist dammit, and you should by now know for a fact that feelings live inside the brain.

Grumpy materialist is grumpy.

This spring I decided I need to commit to a course of desensitization injections to deal with my allergies on a more permanent basis. I was feeling pretty good with the decision, I went to the doctor and got a referral, and set about calling the clinic to make an appointment.

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I need a break from life.

Last night I sank into an internet-induced haze wherein I was both captivated and bored at the same time. This morning I put in another stern call to my provider about terminating my account, they are supposed to phone me today, but then they were supposed to call me yesterday. They called while I was in class and my phone on silent and then never called back. I feel a little bad about being stern with the customer service person, since this has nothing to do with her, so I simply asked her to pass on to her boss or whoever is in charge that I will keep calling until my account is terminated.

I'd been planning to get rid of my (basically terrible) cable plan for ages, to save some money on services I don't need anymore and also get some more efficient service. Cable-based internet goes down all the time and I have found their tech support service mostly unreliable and subpar. Yes, of course I know some of the flaws are inherent (weekends...) to the service or technology, but what's the point of a competitive market if I can't at least try the alternative to see if it's any better? Plus I will be getting a router through the phone company, so maybe I'll have a landline installed. If the price seems reasonable. I cannot always rely on my cellphone, it's not prudent.

Tomorrow I have no classes. \o/

I have a question about Dragon Age fandom. I mean, I could wade right in, but I'm at Denerim right now and I already have more of an idea of what to expect in the future than I'd like.

( I base my questions on my experiences in other fandoms. )