Laughter Through Tears

I haven't done jukebox_fest since 2015, so this is pretty exciting.

Rambling thoughts below the cut.

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Thanks for reading!

Hello yuletide gifter,

If you've arrived at this post and it's still not quite finished... I'm sorry. I am aiming to complete it before the end of the sign-up period, but sometimes life happens.

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Updated 2/11/2018.

An annotated guide to my Purimgifts 2017 request:

Part 1 - Fandoms

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Part 2 - Additional Tags

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Part 3 - Rating

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Part 4 - Archive Warnings

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Part 5 - Additional Details

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I'm always happy with what I get, but sometimes I respond to the fics late because of anxiety issues. If it's been a day or two and I haven't commented yet, that definitely doesn't mean I didn't read and love the story, just that I'm anxious that day.

Wow it's Yuletide time again! This is super exciting.

Some general notes on squicks: ( squicks )

Fandom specific things: ( fandoms )

Please have lots of fun, and I can't wait to read what you write. :D

I am reading Kameron Hurley's God's War and starting to near the end. Meanwhile I'm also contemplating my review, and what I should read next. I had planned to read Ann Leckie's Ancillary Justice which is already saved to my tablet, but after reading a few reviews and blog posts about Sorcerer to the Crown I'm very tempted to let it jump the queue.

Right now I'm actively working on three stories. One of them is my femslashex gift. Another one is a Collar of the Damned mythological work that I've been writing on-and-off for what seems like years. Finally, I'm working on an original fantasy story that started from a great concept, but which I am struggling to develop. The dialogue is stalled. I am hoping that returning to the sources that inspired me will help me jump start it.

Some might say that working on too many projects simultaneously is bad form, and probably hurts my writing. What am I gonna tell you? This is the only way I know that works for me. All in all, though, I'd say September is progressing well, especially considering the holidays.

I have kind of a love-hate relationships with femslashex. Okay, maybe that's overstating it a little. But, I have participated a couple of times and like a lot of multi-fandom fests, when your fandom is minor or you're interested in less mainstream pairings... things get interesting. So I would nominate a whole bunch of obscure fandoms and strange pairings and put up an offer as broad as possible, so as to make matching easier.

Years in fandom and a free-for-all shipping mentality have made me very good at adapting to a wide variety of different types of stories and pairings. Yet, somehow, even when I was going in with bright eyes and a positive attitude, I've always struggled to fulfill my FEX assignments. Oh, I got them all done and they were all passably decent, but I don't think I've ever felt really good about any of them. And I was often anxious about how best to balance my tendency to default to the bizarre and esoteric, with meeting the parameters of the recipient's request.

Not sure how it's gonna go this year, but since I have a shiny, shiny new fandom with a whole bunch of femslash pairings, and since I know at least one other person nominated pairings in this fandom... we'll see how it goes.

Dear jukebox_fest gifter!

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You are not obliged to hold up any part of this except the DNW part way at the beginning.

Seal barking at my purimgifts assignment.

Optional details are optional!

Basically what I'm gonna do is this: first I will list a few squicks and triggers I prefer you'd avoid, then I'll list a few general things that make me happy, and finally I'll put down a story concept for each fandom I requested. You're not bound to any of these and you can use whichever level of detail you're most comfortable with.

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I took up some sort of weird work commitment that accounts for a few hours a month. Nothing resembling a paycheck but I am relieved at the very least at having productive occupation. The kind that I know I can stick to/see through, since I'm getting pretty tired of being mad at myself for spending too much time online (or playing games) and not enough time studying/working/writing. I hope this works out and helps keep me sharp for when I get a full-time job, and maybe even spruces up my resume. Meanwhile I have an interview/exam for a real position on Sunday morning. The holidays are fucking with my sense of time.

I have discovered myself to be too tired, or anxious, or bored to do much Icon this year. It's just... abominably crowded, and full of kids, and smells powerfully of stale sweat. /o\

My current fic assignment is behind schedule and I'm nervous as hell. There's a creeping feeling growing in the back of my mind that I might miss the deadline, which is something I have never done. Nearly happened with this year's purimgifts, but at the end I got the last one in. Defaulting, and at such a late point, is really an awful feeling. I just-- ugh, I just have to man the hell up and write it, even if it doesn't come out as good as I hoped.

I know there's a Tumblr Savior-like app that works on AO3. How about Delicious? Is there anything that will allow me to somehow reverse filter links to prompts/fills? IDK. "Not" filtering is kind of complicated.