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Wednesday, 3 April 2019 19:47
lea_hazel: The outlook is somewhat dismal (Feel: Crash and Burn)
Sooo I should do a life update? But the really important stuff is stuff that I can't talk about right now? Maybe I should wait. Maybe right now all you need to know is that I'm alive and my bedroom ceiling is leaking.

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Sunday, 24 March 2019 07:47
lea_hazel: I am surrounded by tiny red hearts (Feel: Love)
I had a bad week last week and then the 7KPP alpha update showed up like a miracle to save me, so I've been obsessing about that nonstop since *checks clock* Wednesday morning? First thing in the morning, too. I got a push notification on Twitter of all places, heh.
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I am struggling.

Don't comment.

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Friday, 8 February 2019 11:00
lea_hazel: The outlook is somewhat dismal (Feel: Crash and Burn)
I reset my Patreon account because if I can't help myself I can at least help others.
lea_hazel: The outlook is somewhat dismal (Feel: Crash and Burn)
Right now I have the kind of cold that makes everything seem terrible, and like it has always been terrible and always will be terrible. So it's not a good time to ask me about things in general. I am tired and worn down and I have work deadlines and other pressures. I have not touched my game since early December.

The only state in which I'm really comfortable right now is that ephemeral state between sleep and wakefulness that happens when you wake up, but don't have to get out of bed or go back to sleep. And I of course am not getting very much of that right now. When I do, it makes me late for work and then I have to play catch-up with my hours.

I uninstalled Facebook and Twitter from my phone in the hopes of increasing my productivity and maybe doing some light reading in my down time. Instead I'm just out of touch with everyone and I can't remember the last time I finished a book. I have not done my daily pages in two weeks, and every time my phone alarm rings I fight the urge to dash it against the wall.

Life Update

Tuesday, 15 January 2019 22:27
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I've got a couple more days of antibiotics for my busted thumb, and it's supposed to maybe snow tomorrow in Jerusalem.

Other than that, I'm working too much and not writing enough, and everything's more or less the same.
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I wanted to make December not be the worst month but I'm too tired to write. I think I'll curl up in bed and read a little fanfic before I go to sleep.

Happy new year.

wow tmi

Wednesday, 21 November 2018 06:42
lea_hazel: Angry General Elodie (Feel: RAEG)
I'm having a hellish shark week.

wow tmi )

Anyway, I'm having a rough week.

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Thursday, 25 October 2018 20:06
lea_hazel: The outlook is somewhat dismal (Feel: Crash and Burn)
For the last three weeks, I've told my Pilates instructors about my new job, and how crunched up I am from sitting in front of the computer all day, at every single lesson. Never used to say things like that.

I mean, it's clearly good for me, and all.

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Tuesday, 9 October 2018 20:54
lea_hazel: The outlook is somewhat dismal (Feel: Crash and Burn)
Was I this bad last time I started a new job? I hope not.


Saturday, 6 October 2018 20:54
lea_hazel: The Little Mermaid (Default)
First day of the new job tomorrow.

Getting up super early. Should probably try to, you know, sleep? Soon-ish? I just wanted to be sure I would commemorate this occasion. I've been unemployed since January and it's been ups and downs. And I've been stressing about this job for a while. Everything's gonna be okay.

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Wednesday, 11 July 2018 23:00
lea_hazel: The Little Mermaid (Default)
Literally never give me advice on anything unless I specifically ask for it.
lea_hazel: The outlook is somewhat dismal (Feel: Crash and Burn)
I made an appointment for the dentist, to which I haven't been in about five billion years.

Fixed the short ficiton page on my blog so that it links to my actual published works. I R serious writer.

...Ate breakfast?
lea_hazel: Typewriter (Basic: Writing)
On the whole, March is getting off to a pretty good start. I'm kind of tired now, otherwise I would elaborate. Not everything is as I would want it to be, and there's a whole lot of work to be done. But my life no longer feels like a crumbling shambles. Which is a nice change.
lea_hazel: The outlook is somewhat dismal (Feel: Crash and Burn)
I did things today. I did things yesterday and on Sunday, although it didn't really feel like it at the time.

I have three pending submissions logged on the Submission Grinder.

And the first magazine to ever publish my work professionally is available for purchase as a paperback. I have my own backer copy of course.

(I will be okay, eventually.)

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Friday, 5 January 2018 10:57
lea_hazel: Neuron cell (Science: Brains)
2018 isn't treating me great so far. Everything seems like a waste.
lea_hazel: I am surrounded by tiny red hearts (Feel: Love)
I don't know what is up with me but the year's end is approaching and things seem to be mostly kind of okay. I'm behind on a lot of things as usual. I'm fighting with medical issues as usual. I'm worried about work and about writing. Small measure of progress: I did some reading today. I go through long periods of drought when I can't seem to get any reading done or finish a book for the life of me, so anything that gains me even a little bit of momentum is welcome.

My last attempt to kickstart my reading didn't go great. I went for a fluffy adventure type romance from an author whose work I had enjoyed several times before, but at a certain point the characterization took a turn. I was reading in fits and starts, determined to just finish the book and be done with it, maybe write a quick review to vent my spleen. But a certain plot turn was just more than I could handle and I gave up.

Today I took a longish walk and then a longish nap. I didn't do much of anything else. I did spend some of the day trying to catch up on the fourth season of The Librarians but my internet connection was having none of it. Too much stuttering to buffer properly. And I read [twitter.com profile] smallweed's thread about secondary characters, and wondered about the personal journeys of the supporting cast in my newest project.

Tomorrow is a work day and a new work week. And then the week after that things will start getting real. *shudder*

Real Winter

Monday, 20 November 2017 08:19
lea_hazel: The outlook is somewhat dismal (Feel: Crash and Burn)
Tomorrow the Real Winter is supposed to start. I'm not sure I'm ready.

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Tuesday, 14 November 2017 08:29
lea_hazel: The outlook is somewhat dismal (Feel: Crash and Burn)
I dreamed a mutant kitten had been creeping into my bedroom. It was one of those fun dreams, too, where I also dream that I wake up and wonder whether that was a dream, and then it happens again. Why do I dream about cats so often?
lea_hazel: I am surrounded by tiny red hearts (Feel: Love)
I'm experiencing a wave of nostalgia for my old fanfic that is both powerful and inexplicable.


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