Laughter Through Tears

I took up some sort of weird work commitment that accounts for a few hours a month. Nothing resembling a paycheck but I am relieved at the very least at having productive occupation. The kind that I know I can stick to/see through, since I'm getting pretty tired of being mad at myself for spending too much time online (or playing games) and not enough time studying/working/writing. I hope this works out and helps keep me sharp for when I get a full-time job, and maybe even spruces up my resume. Meanwhile I have an interview/exam for a real position on Sunday morning. The holidays are fucking with my sense of time.

I have discovered myself to be too tired, or anxious, or bored to do much Icon this year. It's just... abominably crowded, and full of kids, and smells powerfully of stale sweat. /o\

My current fic assignment is behind schedule and I'm nervous as hell. There's a creeping feeling growing in the back of my mind that I might miss the deadline, which is something I have never done. Nearly happened with this year's purimgifts, but at the end I got the last one in. Defaulting, and at such a late point, is really an awful feeling. I just-- ugh, I just have to man the hell up and write it, even if it doesn't come out as good as I hoped.

I know there's a Tumblr Savior-like app that works on AO3. How about Delicious? Is there anything that will allow me to somehow reverse filter links to prompts/fills? IDK. "Not" filtering is kind of complicated.

Choice of Romance games are brain-eating, but not as badly as I feared. I stayed up late playing them more than once, but I'm not completely out of control.

Today I didn't watch any videos, but I've been reading the intro to logic booklet that's in my study kit.

And writing. Writing accidental kmeme sequels. Why so many simultaneous projects, self? Don't you know better by now?

The octopus is the secret winner of Yuletide. In other news this year's Yuletide reminded me of some recs from last year's that I forgot (naturally) to post about. Tonight I will try to compile a proper recs post, give or take.

One funny thing about looking at Yuletide fic summaries, is that it gives me a strange urge to write fics that I will never ever write in fandoms that I'm not even really in. For example: the Deb-centric Dexter fic I'm not writing, a whole bunch of snippet ideas of Game of Thrones, and various other ludicrosities.

But really, the fact that the Kushiel books don't even have a teeny, tiny kink meme makes me so sad.

Let's go meta: Rec me recs lists of Yuletide fics.

I am recording some of my worst writing habits for posterity.

Today's Google logo is the coolest. Yes, it is even cooler than the Pac-Man one.

Tonight my brother and I watch X-Men: First Class. Tomorrow is the Tel Aviv Pride Parade and I want to go, but only if I meet friends there. There is A Thing about the difference between the TA gay community and the Jerusalem gay community that I don't want to get into, but I am not really a Tel Aviv person. If I went alone I would feel lonely, estranged and out of place. If I went with friends, it would be awesome.

TV tropes is a kind of special hell for writers.

There is some sort of phenomenon with fandom kink memes that inspire a lot of gen. I don't really know what causes that to happen, but it's very interesting.

I have a lot of questions and observations today, but no answers or conclusions.