lea_hazel: Arthritis: It does the body bad (Health: Arthritis)
There's been a heat-wave for several days, but it's pretty cloudy out. Cloudy and hot, and odd combination. I'm not sure whether it's the odd weather or something else, but my joints have started acting up. Last night I went out to a game event with some friends at the local LGBT center, and towards the end of the evening my right arm was hurting something fierce. Even my hands are giving me trouble. It's something like thirty degrees out and I'm sitting around with fingerless gloves (which really help).

Life )

Mostly everything is good. I think writing a blog post (which I haven't made a proper one of in a while) will probably help me gather my mind. I'll put on some jeans and pop out to see what the whether is tangibly like. Maybe I'll dash into the city for a few chores.


Saturday, 7 December 2013 09:16
lea_hazel: The Little Mermaid (Default)
I broke myself carrying that damn printer home yesterday and it doesn't even work. Bluh.

Never Forget

Tuesday, 15 October 2013 14:44
lea_hazel: A frowning white theater mask (Feel: Sad Face :()
I would have joined the Dreamwidth devteam if I didn't have a pathological fear of Perl.

Never let me forget how incredibly boring reading programming books is. Last time I did so successfully I was on a plane.

This process is also complicated by the exciting fact that my left hand is fucked up again. Two thumbs up for arthritis.

I have not yet figured out how to execute a complicated breakup.

In better news, I may get an interview for a job in TA. It would seemingly involve more client-side than I might have hoped, but that may ultimately be better.

This open source thing, IDK.
lea_hazel: Arthritis: It does the body bad (Health: Arthritis)
If I have pain in my right ankle and my right wrist, is that my arthritis progressing, or just a coincidence? And if it's the former, what would be best to do? Should I phone my rheumatologist? He's always so busy, it's a huge pain to get an appointment. Maybe I'm overreacting.

Maybe I'll take a walk and then read some fanfic.

Happy Shushan Purim, everyone. Especially everyone who lives in a two thousand plus year old walled city.


Monday, 28 January 2013 18:52
lea_hazel: A frowning white theater mask (Feel: Sad Face :()
I was trying to turn over a new leaf and so I never added a RAGE icon to this journal. I'm beginning to regret this.

I have arthritis. It was very bad for a while. It got better, much better. It's been about five years since I last (regularly) walked with a limp. Today it took a Pilates teacher ten minutes flat to fuck up my knee so bad I pretty much had to throw in the metaphoric towel and leave. Half an hour later, now I'm home with a heating pad.

My assessment is that it's not too bad. If I don't agitate it it ought to be fine by tomorrow. Mostly it's the shock that got to me, I think? It's been forever since I felt this hobbled. I had gotten so comfortable with my previous Pilates provider that I let my guard down and forgot why I'm innately suspicious of workout culture.

Now is no time to try and solve the bigger issue, I'm still too nervous and I'd just end up driving myself up the wall. I will watch Lost Girl and produce some supper and eventually everything will be back-to-baseline okay.


Tuesday, 6 November 2012 15:53
lea_hazel: Arthritis: It does the body bad (Health: Arthritis)
Sunday: Visit doctor. Tuesday: Dull persistent ache in (previously untouched) left elbow.

Body, your timing sucks.

Work vs. Play

Friday, 15 June 2012 09:19
lea_hazel: Neuron cell (Basic: Science)
Should I allow myself to get subsumed in emotion today, and work on my class assignments tomorrow, or the other way around?

Yes, I am still wading in the miasma of uncontrollable erupting feelings that this spring has decided to land on me. No, I don't know how or why. Yes, I am trying to find a more long-term solution for the matter, but it is hard.

Last night I went out to a "lights show" with my brother, but it was sort of a disaster. I had a big panic attack.

I wish my grades more often reflected my level of interest in the material I learned. Sometimes they do, but not enough. Especially this semester, when I basically loved almost all my classes, but I feel like outside factors got in the way and I won't score very well. Sometimes I feel judged by vague external forces with no name. I guess that's an anxiety thing.

Earlier this week, my knee got fucked up right before pilates. The second half of the week I was kind of a mess and that makes buses and trains complicated because I have to sit diagonally. My knee won't go to ninety degrees when it's pretty badly off. This also triggers the "everyone is silently judging me" reaction.

Video games and comics have decided to be ass this week, and I can't really deal with it but I will feel cowardly if I ignore it. The Lara Croft things especially brings up a lot of crap that I seriously don't know how to process at this juncture. Ugh everyone please stop this forever, haven't we already been through this dance enough times?


Wednesday, 13 June 2012 09:47
lea_hazel: The outlook is somewhat dismal (Feel: Crash and Burn)
IDK my body is going haywire. Last night I turned in at eleven and then tossed and turned and barely fell asleep somewhat after two thirty. When the alarm rang at sixish I quickly figured out that I absolutely had to skip my early class due to lack of basic function. Now I'm awake, tired and in pain, I have class in two hours and chores to do, and I'm not sure I can do any of this.

Second to last week of the semester!

The worst is, I'm not even sure it's anything I can reasonably take to the doctor. I mean, what would he do or say that I can't do or say at home? "Get bed rest"? "Sleep better"? IDK. Maybe I've been overdoing it with pilates twice a week, this type of thing seems to happen too often.


Sunday, 27 May 2012 13:45
lea_hazel: Arthritis: It does the body bad (Health: Arthritis)
I pinpointed an orientation that my right arm can't hold, while reading an article about visual perception for cognitive neuroscience. I feel unreasonably proud of this.
lea_hazel: Arthritis: It does the body bad (Health: Arthritis)
today has been a shitty day
so i'm making a blood test reference

Read more... )


Sunday, 13 November 2011 16:13
lea_hazel: A frowning white theater mask (Feel: Sad Face :()
I'm 90% sure that it's not my imagination and my hips actually do start getting creaky and sore when the weather turns worse. Luckily, I'm headed to the doctor in two hours; unluckily, it's the wrong doctor.


Tuesday, 2 August 2011 21:40
lea_hazel: The outlook is somewhat dismal (Feel: Crash and Burn)
Fun fact of the day: Turns out what I have is psoriatic arthritis, not rheumatoid. Those patches on my elbows that I just thought were dry skin are actually psoriasis. The immune system, it is basically the worst.

This does explain why my joint pain isn't symmetrical, but it raises questions about my blood tests. Sigh.


Friday, 17 September 2010 14:00
lea_hazel: Arthritis: It does the body bad (Health: Arthritis)
This morning my knee decided to randomly crap out on me again. Then I carried one (1) not very heavy box from the car to my new place, a total of maybe thirty steps. Now, obviously, I'm paying for my hubris. Plus, my dad's heat pack is mysteriously missing. Last time I had pain this bad I never would have made it without the microwaveable heat pack. And my hot water battle is one of the few things that are still at the old apartment.

So here I am, all ready for Yom Kippur, days away from finally moving into my new home, and all I can think about is "Ow, ow, ow." I wanted to do some brain-searching, but I'm not sure I have the cognitive resources to play Sim ghost hunters. :(

Pride 2010

Thursday, 29 July 2010 23:15
lea_hazel: Pride flag (Politics: GLBTQ)
Pride was hard this year. We marched on the Knesset (the house of representatives) because of the general apathy that followed many bold declarations after last year's shooting, almost exactly a year ago. Many politicians made bold proclamations about the future of gay rights in Israel, the ministry of tourism is actively courting the pink dollar by trying to market Tel Aviv as a gay-friendly tourist destination. Words are pretty cheap, though, and homophobic and transphobic attacks are not yet included in hate crime legislation, among some 700 (!) other inequalities in Israeli law.

Jerusalem pride always has a very strong political slant, but this year was more of a demonstration than ever. There was a counter demonstration of course, but a slim showing of only ~30 radical right activists, and some passersby swore at the walkers. Most just stand by and gawk, I look at them and I can't even tell if it's malice in their eyes or if they look at us as some sort of zoo marching right before their houses. Because of the route the walk was noticeably longer this year, and it wore me down. I stopped to rest a few times but this city definitely needs more benches. Still, I am so glad I went. I missed it for work last year and it was depressing as all hell.

I will turn in and read a bit now, I'm wiped and I have to start studying again Saturday. Organic chemistry is next week and I have put off studying for far too long already. I'm aiming at an 80 or higher. Higher would be nice, I'd like a grade to be really proud of.


Friday, 25 June 2010 17:16
lea_hazel: Kermit: OMG YAY *flail* (Feel: OMGYAY)
I'm actually... pretty relaxed. This despite developing a sudden and inexplicable sore throat sometime last night. Why? I don't know.

I went to the doctor and he told me that my arm is much worse, which on the face of it is bad news, but the fact that he sees it and not just me is good news, sort of. He gave me a shot, which hurt a lot for a few hours but now is making me feel much better. He'll see me again in August and if I don't improve he'll change my meds, which may be either good or bad news. Most of the other issues I wanted to bring up didn't make it, even though I wrote a list and everything. I still haven't gotten an answer re: G6PD deficiency.

After the doctor, I worked on my genetics for a few hours. I finished and submitted the last exercise and scored 85, which ought to bring my grade up a bit if it substitutes for the 50-something I got a few weeks back. I also only made two mistakes, and one of them was reading comprehension *headdesk* which means I know the material pretty well. There's a bonus exercise for extra points I'm working on. Then there's the lab report, which I'm fairly certain I can finish Saturday/Sunday, then hand in on Monday morning.

Most of next week will be preparing for two tests the following week. I have a lot of time and resources, so there's no excuse not to study whole days. I'm thinking social psychology in the morning (= early afternoon) and cell to organism in the afternoon (= early evening). I should actually be able to get a decent amount of studying in (= minimum 20 hours per test) without half killing myself. Woo! {o/

The weather's been downright chilly (25 degrees C, really?) which was a welcome reprieve from that one long hellfire and damnation stretch we had. Also, my hair is so short that it's constantly confusing me. I ran a comb through it yesterday, just to see if I could. The comb is still in one piece. Is this what hair is like for most people?
lea_hazel: The outlook is somewhat dismal (Feel: Crash and Burn)
To avoid thinking about my unruly joints and confronting my doctor with a List of Questions, have a little linkspam. These are some of the links I preemptively kept open yesterday afternoon, so that I would have something to amuse myself during a three hour lecture with no internet. All in all, there were about a dozen, and one of them was a bust because it was the summary of a review and not the review itself. :(

[community profile] femslash10! I am considering signing up, but I don't know about the listed fandoms. I will scrutinize the comments and decide.

Kate Harding has Evo Psych and Icky Girls, a guest blogger's awesome takedown of one of those dubious, prejudiced and all-around embarrassing to science evolutionary psychology studies. The same dubious researcher is featured on Queerty, with a study about fag hags and self-esteem, which is frankly embarrassing in its quality.

A relationship chart of esteemed personages from IO9, which includes Queen Victoria, Mary Shelley, Mark Twain, Pablo Picasso, Leon Trotsky and, of course, Kevin Bacon.

Fuck, yeah, tattoos and biology.
lea_hazel: Neuron cell (Basic: Science)
When I lean over and the light hits my glasses lens just right, I can see a tiny little elbow rainbow* there.

Strange places where I've felt my pulse: at the crook of my elbow, when I was trying to support the damaged joint without straining the muscle too much. This might be my radial recurrent artery. Previously I've heard/felt my pulse when leaning my head against my palm (frequently), once in my thumb (!) and possibly once in my neck.

I have managed to extend my stay in my current apartment until the end of September. Nonetheless, I will try to con myself into starting packing as soon as the semester ends. Once I am in my new apartment, I'm getting a quality barometer and affixing it to my wall, so I can examine my theory that sudden changes in atmospheric pressure make my knees act up.

My body: an ongoing scientific experiment.

* ETA: Take this as evidence of how much my elbow hurts.


Monday, 31 May 2010 17:49
lea_hazel: Kermit: OMG YAY *flail* (Feel: OMGYAY)
My fantasies are pitiful: Having a ground floor apartment (or as near as possible) would mean that I could get a market cart on wheels (like these). That in turn would mean I could buy things like fabric softener (!) and six-packs of root beer (!!) that are too heavy for me to carry up two flights of stairs. Exciting!

(Operation Don't Post About Calculus is entering its first phase.)


Wednesday, 31 March 2010 21:55
lea_hazel: The Little Mermaid (Default)
Wow, I haven't updated all week, mostly because I was busy, and I have had a very eventful two weeks and I'm going to be busy tomorrow too. So I guess sometime on Friday I will make a big post about all the exciting, exciting books stuff that has happened to me lately. Because we are not having family dinner on Friday, because it's the holiday and we are all dinnered out (and I am all familied out).

Man, my feet are so sore. At least my knee resolved itself spontaneously, after being horrid for most of the afternoon.


Thursday, 18 March 2010 10:37
lea_hazel: Kermit: OMG YAY *flail* (Feel: OMGYAY)
Other people's woo!: \o/

My woo!: {o/

The curly brace represents my busted elbow that won't straighten all the way.

Anyway, today is day 4 of 4 of CHEMPOCALYPSE: the study session from hell. The test is tomorrow at 9 AM. By noon tomorrow, it will be over, FBOW. Given how hard I studied (am studying), I will probably cry myself to sleep for a week if I don't break 80%.

Also, next week I have to somehow throw together a hand-in on Twelve Angry Men for my class on social processes. In pairs. Dr. R, why do you hate us so?

I swear I will start updating about non-uni things sometime soon.


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