Laughter Through Tears

A lot happened in my dreams tonight, but the part I remember most vividly is taking a pomegranate from the tree outside, slicing it in half, and turning out all the seeds (so red!) onto a plate. Dream pomegranates, unlike the real ones, did not have those internal white membrane dividers. It just fell onto my plate in a perfect half-sphere like a fancy restaurant dessert mousse.

Anyway, lucid dreaming is going well.

I don't want to talk about the cough I had yesterday and maybe having the first cold of winter in October, so I'll write about my dream:

I dreamed that I was walking with my sister. At one point, we went into a bookstore and talked about YA books and romance books (two categories I have an ambivalent relationship with). Then we were gonna get a snack because the store stocked snacks and I always dream about food when I fall asleep again in the morning. We were gonna get some candy bars. Then we asked the person at the till why they didn't stock granola bars or something healthier, because by dream logic, we both mystically knew that high school students and teenagers often stopped at the store on their way to school, and we thought they should have better breakfast options than candy bars. And the employee answered that they wanted to, but their license (???) prohibited them from stocking any food except candy. Even granola bars.

Then it segued into the usual "lost and late to the airport and also I haven't packed" type sequence. Real tell me you have anxiety without telling me you have anxiety stuff.

Last night/this morning I had a weird dream that turned abruptly very dark. But before things got weird, I dreamed that I was organizing and/or attending an exhibit for my last year of high school art class (which I did not complete, I did two years and then switched to focus on science classes). ( Read more... )

I feel this stupid tiredness where it's like there's a lead weight tied by string to my body and it's pulling me down, and my entire body just wants to flop as far down as possible and not try to get up. But I have a bunch of chores and one of them absolutely has to get done this morning, first thing. A very annoying one that was dropped on me out of nowhere courtesy of my amazingly thoughtful and organized family.

Meanwhile I dreamed that I got a call from that first interview and I was happy because I felt like finally I had options and was employable and then I woke up. ;_;

I dreamed about God Tier Nanna. For the record she was a Seer, possibly even the Seer of Space (although my waking mind wants to peg her as the Seer of Heart). ( more dream details )

The guy who draws the regular Supergirl book did an SDCC sketch of Steampunk Supergirl. It is pretty awesome. I saw it on Tumblr with a link (praise the lord, end days are here) back to his DA account. And here it is.

My weird dream repertoire is expanding. Instead of just dreaming that I slept late and missed class, I dreamed that I couldn't fall asleep. This is possibly because, in the dream, I was trying to fall asleep on my grandmother's living room sofa, while my parents blathered in the kitchen. Other shenanigans included losing my shoes, having to climb lots of stairs ;_;, missing the bus (more than once) and having to beg favors off of strangers.

Basically a perfect storm of anxieties.

My brain, ladies and gentlemen.

Ugh, it's not even as though today was so awful to begin with, mainly the stress of knowing that when I got home is when the real work would be starting. I have to read about 50 pages for physiology and I've only done about 20, and that took me all week. I don't even feel as though the week is coming to an end because the reading is for a lab tomorrow which means I'll be on campus from 8 AM to 5 PM and after that I will crash like a falling tree or something. Then on the weekend I have a ton of homework and it's all urgent and difficult and ugh. And I have a million chores and I have no idea when I'll get to them.

This morning I dreamed about crocodiles in the Nile.

My last test was yesterday. It's officially time to think about next semester's schedule, since classes start in a little over a month. Said month will be mostly full of holidays (Rosh Hashana starts the comic Wednesday, then there's Yom Kippur and Sukkot) and moving (I go into the new apartment in October).

Meanwhile I'm celebrating my sister's birthday and toying with Sims 3's world-making tool. I'm making a town called Loserville that's geared to stop Sims from getting rich so easily.

Last night I had the strangest dreams. I just remembered dreaming that I have to take extra classes next year because I missed them this year. Then just before waking up I dreamed I was at a magical ice cream parlor conjuring magical sundaes on my first date, and in the dream I was a teenager. Odd.

Hez has a cold, so we're taking a slow day. Yesterday Hez had a dinner party, which was nice. Before that we saw the Angel of the North, which is apparently one of the largest statues in the world, or some such. The facelessness of the statue is probably meant to invoke universality, but it struck me as a bit creepy.

I have not read the Twilight books (except a few pages from the beginning of the first), so why did I dream about pregnant Bella Swan last night? It was bizarre.

I had this dream again, with the added disturbing subtext that I start uni in October. Plus, I was late for work. And it was Thursday. There were no sharks, thankfully.