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mental health news
Tuesday, 23 November 2021 18:21Today I 1. had a dr's appointment to renew my adhd prescription (among other things), 2. sat at a cafe and read for a while, 3. went to my parents' house and worked on TC for a couple of hours, producing ~500 very fun words, 4. took a bus down to a scenic neighborhood and took a long walk, while also playing pokemon go.
I got home exhausted, but it was a good day.
It has also made me think about what I'll do when TC is finished (which might be quite soon). I have several other projects I might work on. I'd also like to return to short fiction and twine games, a little. But first thing, I think I ought to take a full whole month to do absolutely nothing. No thoughts brain empty, for a full thirty days.
Yes. Good plan.
I got home exhausted, but it was a good day.
It has also made me think about what I'll do when TC is finished (which might be quite soon). I have several other projects I might work on. I'd also like to return to short fiction and twine games, a little. But first thing, I think I ought to take a full whole month to do absolutely nothing. No thoughts brain empty, for a full thirty days.
Yes. Good plan.
Keeping up with keeping up
Tuesday, 19 October 2021 11:44Things aren't normal, but for the moment, I'm proceeding as though they are. Right now, that means I'm still working on updating the Fairmont demo, for the third week in a row. Yikes. This time, however, might actually work.
The week before the week before NaNoWriMo
Wednesday, 21 October 2020 18:32Sunday through Tuesday, I worked hard on the outline for my NaNoWriMo 2020 novel. I'm pleased with my progress and with how the week had been going in general, but then today I suddenly was tired, sleepy, listless, and generally had difficulty motivating myself. I even took a nap despite having gotten a very sound night's sleep, and my plan to move my sleep schedule in advance of winter clock/losing DST.
Yesterday I had prepared a reasonable list of tasks that needed doing today, hoping to get to them in the morning, when I was fresh. I'm trying out Scrivener for the first time, for example. I also have a big, nasty bug in the TC beta that I need to solve, and it requires hours of debug and testing. Not that I didn't do anything today, but I'm definitely not making as much of a dent in the old to-do list as I'd hoped.
I did go out to run errands and got some oranges, my first batch of the winter. Had one for lunch.
Yesterday I had prepared a reasonable list of tasks that needed doing today, hoping to get to them in the morning, when I was fresh. I'm trying out Scrivener for the first time, for example. I also have a big, nasty bug in the TC beta that I need to solve, and it requires hours of debug and testing. Not that I didn't do anything today, but I'm definitely not making as much of a dent in the old to-do list as I'd hoped.
I did go out to run errands and got some oranges, my first batch of the winter. Had one for lunch.
Small Things
Monday, 21 September 2020 17:55We're back in quarantine, more or less, and on Friday we celebrated Rosh Hashana over Zoom. This morning (once the holiday was over) I had to pop out to the shopping center, to pick up lightbulbs. My living room bulb burned out on Friday night, of all times. On my way, I picked up coffee from the bakery, because I was out of instant and my grocery delivery won't arrive until tonight.
There were people out, but many shops are closed and the area wasn't exactly crowded.
Then I came home, did a little reading, made lunch. Did some house chores. In between, managed to write some code for Fairmont and do a bit of outlining. I realized from my struggles with ending TC that my main problem is that I didn't give enough through to the structure of the gameplay early in the design process. I'm trying to do better with Fairmont. This is giving rise to an interesting phenomenon of variable theme and tone, which will affect player experience even more interestingly.
But I'm not ready to expose Fairmont to more eyes, just yet.
The heat has been less intense. That's something. Still, my allergies are acting up, and last night I had a surprise migraine.
There were people out, but many shops are closed and the area wasn't exactly crowded.
Then I came home, did a little reading, made lunch. Did some house chores. In between, managed to write some code for Fairmont and do a bit of outlining. I realized from my struggles with ending TC that my main problem is that I didn't give enough through to the structure of the gameplay early in the design process. I'm trying to do better with Fairmont. This is giving rise to an interesting phenomenon of variable theme and tone, which will affect player experience even more interestingly.
But I'm not ready to expose Fairmont to more eyes, just yet.
The heat has been less intense. That's something. Still, my allergies are acting up, and last night I had a surprise migraine.
Writing and Anxiety
Monday, 13 April 2020 23:23I don't know what I would do without therapy. I need a place to air and/or confront my irrational fears. Heaven knows now is the perfect time for those to crop up.
On the writing front, I can be pretty happy with my progress on both Turncoat and Fairmont (the new project). I think Fairmont might soon be ready for first readers. I'm especially pleased with the fact that it's more challenging for me on a technical level, that I'm doing more with form and not just with story. I think that means I'm finally gaining some hard-earned confidence forming long-form stories.
I'm also glad because I crave the attention of having a game in public beta, so hey.
Less than a month ago I was thinking, wishing, hoping, believing that by the end of Pesach this would all be over. Now I think we'd be lucky to be out of quarantine before June.
Tomorrow I have phone calls to make. I don't look forward to it.
On the writing front, I can be pretty happy with my progress on both Turncoat and Fairmont (the new project). I think Fairmont might soon be ready for first readers. I'm especially pleased with the fact that it's more challenging for me on a technical level, that I'm doing more with form and not just with story. I think that means I'm finally gaining some hard-earned confidence forming long-form stories.
I'm also glad because I crave the attention of having a game in public beta, so hey.
Less than a month ago I was thinking, wishing, hoping, believing that by the end of Pesach this would all be over. Now I think we'd be lucky to be out of quarantine before June.
Tomorrow I have phone calls to make. I don't look forward to it.
Chasing the new hotness
Sunday, 5 April 2020 22:14...so I'm writing a new game.
I'm still working on Turncoat, obviously. In fact, just this afternoon I was able to cross a few items off my to-do list, so I feel good about that. And I mean to work on it every day this week, since the holiday is happening entirely over Zoom.
But I succumbed to the New Hotness, and I have a new game.
I'm still working on Turncoat, obviously. In fact, just this afternoon I was able to cross a few items off my to-do list, so I feel good about that. And I mean to work on it every day this week, since the holiday is happening entirely over Zoom.
But I succumbed to the New Hotness, and I have a new game.
Today was a good day. Sort of.
Tuesday, 10 December 2019 20:45I had a good morning. Got in gear pretty quickly. Made it to the library. Was pretty productive, although I didn't get a final word count on my work today. And I took some notes. I know where I'm going and I feel good about my work today. Then I went to get a coffee and a light lunch, which was a nice cap to the morning. I also managed to get a laundry in and a few other small things that needed doing, so objectively it was a good day.
But sometimes a bad feeling sneaks up on me out of nowhere and I have this heaviness in my chest, and it's sneaky so by the time I notice it I don't know what to do except distract myself with games and nonsense until it dissolves and leaves me alone.
So I had a good day, sort of, but I still somehow feel like shit about myself.
But sometimes a bad feeling sneaks up on me out of nowhere and I have this heaviness in my chest, and it's sneaky so by the time I notice it I don't know what to do except distract myself with games and nonsense until it dissolves and leaves me alone.
So I had a good day, sort of, but I still somehow feel like shit about myself.
Back in action, finally
Wednesday, 30 October 2019 16:33In terms of presaging how well NaNo 2019 will go for me, this week is pretty optimistic.
Beta Anxiety
Monday, 3 June 2019 20:43I'm almost ready to share the next beta version of TC, and nervously contemplating updating the free demo with some of the changes.
A good update, for once
Saturday, 16 March 2019 16:12Some days I feel terrible about myself, my writing, and my life (in that order). But today I feel good about everything and I'm so excited about TC I could almost throw up.
So I'm putting this note here to remind me of it, later.
So I'm putting this note here to remind me of it, later.
two weeks without pilates...
Tuesday, 18 December 2018 19:16...and i am /astounded/ at how badly my entire right side, and especially my back, are all knotted up. i gotta get a handle on this type of thing to keep it from happening too often.
and today is evidently not gonna be a writing day. i don't want to strain what i just spent fifty minutes softening up.
i made a choice script community of pillowfort here: https://www.pillowfort.io/community/choicescript
there was an interactive fiction challenge for yuletide that i only just found out about here: https://yuletide.dreamwidth.org/141781.html#comments
and today is evidently not gonna be a writing day. i don't want to strain what i just spent fifty minutes softening up.
i made a choice script community of pillowfort here: https://www.pillowfort.io/community/choicescript
there was an interactive fiction challenge for yuletide that i only just found out about here: https://yuletide.dreamwidth.org/141781.html#comments
November is over.
Saturday, 1 December 2018 00:13NaNoWriMo is over.
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Next weekend I'm having my own private little "writing retreat". I hope to work on either TC or BR, with mystical luck perhaps both.
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Next weekend I'm having my own private little "writing retreat". I hope to work on either TC or BR, with mystical luck perhaps both.
Getting NaNoWriMo off to a right start. :)
Friday, 2 November 2018 12:29Got a little bit done today on both Blue Rose and on Turncoat Chronicle. A good omen for the month, I think. I'm still hopelessly jammed on the next scene in BR, but one of the writing sprint prompts was extremely relevant to a scene I won't get to until halfway through act 2. So, yeah.
And Verity is still being Verity. I wrote about 1K for her last night after work. Again, on the whole theme of getting a positive start.
And Verity is still being Verity. I wrote about 1K for her last night after work. Again, on the whole theme of getting a positive start.
Things I did today.
Tuesday, 30 October 2018 22:36Things I did today: voted, wrote 500 words of Turncoat Chronicle, attended a NaNoWriMo kickoff party, proof-read and pre-posted some stuff on the AO3.
Things I did not do: answer extremely important emails, get any laundry done at all, finish my Yuletide letter.
Things I did not do: answer extremely important emails, get any laundry done at all, finish my Yuletide letter.
On the face of it
Tuesday, 2 October 2018 19:41On the face of it, September was not a good writing month. My word count spread sheet, which I am still diligently keeping for 2018, shows about 11K pure words written in September. The holidays were a huge drain on my mental resources, and despite my best intentions, most mid-week holiday days didn't get used as full writing days. Lots of days off were taken. Lots of naps were taken. But also, on a more optimistic note, I did a lot of background and outlining work. I did a lot of code work on Turncoat Chronicle, too.
In other fun news there was Icon 2018 which was mind-blowingly awesome, to be quite honest. And I got my first-ever fanart early in Sept. for TC, followed closely by the second. So that was a pretty amazing tick on my writer's checklist.
I start my new job on Sunday and I haven't (yet?) written a con wrap-up post.
I have a hell of a lot to do with what little is left of the week and I just got up an hour ago from a totally unnecessary nap. Seems like a perfect time to sink into an hour or two of Skyrim, for no particular reason.
In other fun news there was Icon 2018 which was mind-blowingly awesome, to be quite honest. And I got my first-ever fanart early in Sept. for TC, followed closely by the second. So that was a pretty amazing tick on my writer's checklist.
I start my new job on Sunday and I haven't (yet?) written a con wrap-up post.
I have a hell of a lot to do with what little is left of the week and I just got up an hour ago from a totally unnecessary nap. Seems like a perfect time to sink into an hour or two of Skyrim, for no particular reason.
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Wednesday, 22 August 2018 22:18I'm not really crossposting from my other blog anymore (it wasn't paying off) but I put up a quick post about Turncoat Chronicle and the books and games that influenced me going into it. You can find that here.
Writing Progress
Thursday, 14 June 2018 23:34"Snowfall" is at 7206 words, end of chapter three. "Welcome Wagon" is 7246 words and complete. I am strongly debating with myself whether I should write Choice of Rebels fic or wait until I've gotten to know the game a little better.
"Blue Rose" is at 16,768 words. "Turncoat Chronicle" is as ever hard to assess, but CSIDE's word counter gives it as 6441, or 8868 with code.
"Blue Rose" is at 16,768 words. "Turncoat Chronicle" is as ever hard to assess, but CSIDE's word counter gives it as 6441, or 8868 with code.