Laughter Through Tears

Waking up at six and getting home at eight-ish is wearing on me. My family keeps telling me not to rush finding a new place to rent, but I doubt I can keep this up for a month or more. I mean. Of course I can keep it up, I just think the cost in terms of lost sleep and especially waking downtime will affect my performance and reflect poorly on me.

Meanwhile today my plans to work on my DABB story were derailed by a sudden inexplicable two hour nap (while playing Night Vale) in the background. Deadline's at the end of this week and I'm 90% sure that what I'll end up with won't qualify as a first draft. I'd like to keep working on it regardless, but for that I'd need people prompting me to continue. Much as I love fanfic and enjoy writing it, I have a limited capacity to push myself to write without encouragement, and now that most of my hours are occupied, that won't be enough.

Still. I'd really like to finish it, if only so that there can be one more bisexual vampire BDSM A/U femslash fanfic out there.

You know those memes that go around periodically about posting fanfic and irrationally hoping to get instant feedback? Today I crossposted four ficlets from fic_promptly comments to AO3. Within three hours they all had hits and kudos, and I got a gushing comment on an older fic, too. One of my favorites, in fact (even if some days I can't stand to look at it).

My apartment needs a thorough cleaning but I don't feel like doing it.

I've decided that it's time to give up on doing a blackout for genprompt_bingo. It was a nice thought, and hypothetically feasible, but I just don't have that kind of attention span right now. I have too many projects running in parallel. Meanwhile my big bang piece has reached the interesting part and now I get to decide how intereting it's going to be.

Lots going on. Family stuff, possible job prospect. Frankly I'd rather keep blogging about fanfic and avoid thinking about it for a couple of hours.