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Oct. 28th, 2014 07:56 pm
lea_hazel: The Little Mermaid (Default)
Work is hard. :/

/huge whiner
lea_hazel: Don't make me look up from my book (Basic: Reading)
This is (or will be) a "dear author" letter.
lea_hazel: The outlook is somewhat dismal (Feel: Crash and Burn)
I got back home from Jerusalem much later than I had planned because my parents had a cool houseguest. Consequently the morning was a lost cause but I dedicated much of the afternoon to sweeping and mopping the whole apartment. This is my least favorite house chore, both because it always leaves me tired, sweaty and gross-feeling, and because the apartment gets really nasty if I don't do it often enough. But I'm starting my first week at the new job with a clean floor and fresh linen, which seems auspicious.

Of course as a consequence of not waking up at my own place, and then later the mad rush of neatening and cleaning, I forgot to each a sensibly timed lunch. Now I'm going through a whole progress of figuring out what I can eat and where it can be acquired. I really wish I'd had the good sense to get more supplies for winter-style cooking. Not that I'd break open a bag of red lentils or pearl barley right now. But sooner or later I need to adjust to having foodable foods at home, and for the winter that's really the best stuff.

I wanted to do writing today but probably I will only do TV: How to Get Away with Murder, Haven, and probably/maybe The Flash.

Root canal

Oct. 24th, 2014 01:51 pm
lea_hazel: A frowning white theater mask (Feel: Sad Face :()
And really, nothing else needs saying.
lea_hazel: Kermit: OMG YAY *flail* (Feel: OMGYAY)
Of course, the most burning questions on my end are 1) Is someone going to vid Zero Motivation? and 2) If so, are they going to do it to every song that came out in the nineties omgf adjsfldg.

I mean. Is it just me or is this a hugely nineties kids movie. I know it's not just me. Right? Right?

I'm sorry I'm not sorry but this movie does things to my brain. I mean. It's a movie about the army that's not only relevant to my experiences but aggressively so. I MEAN.

I cannot with this movie. I. can. not.

FML

Oct. 19th, 2014 01:49 pm
lea_hazel: The outlook is somewhat dismal (Feel: Crash and Burn)
Did a test for a job. Owe a phone call for another job. Looked up Open U and they had no useful information to provide, other than reminding me that I signed up for a group with no face-to-face instruction. Now I need to do lunch, but I've gotten to the place where I'm too hungry to eat, I have no appetite and there's nothing especially tempting in the house.

Health blather )

Anyway I got the [community profile] femslashex in and it's... uh, in English. It has sentences and there are girl kisses and more than a thousand words. Technically it meets the qualifications for a fill. Whether it can exceed the base level requirements is beyond my capacity to speculate on, right now.

I am going to go eat a food.
lea_hazel: Neuron cell (Science: Brains)
So it's Friday. And Fridays are weird days. Weirder still when unemployed, because I don't have a work week to set the tone. For example, today I woke late, only did a minimal shopping, did no house chores and barely left the house. Whereas when working I would do a big grocery shopping on Friday morning-ish, or else at least try to clean, or run a laundry. And in the afternoon I would take advantage of the weekend atmosphere to take a walk down one of the more interesting streets. Maybe do some shopping chores, maybe not. Maybe sit in a cafe.

The lack of employment makes it hard to delineate the weekend.

I have a draft saved of a meta post I'm working on regarding using the setting of a story as an independent character. I need to do more research, though, and I may delve into TV Tropes to help me recall some good examples. I am a great fan of treating places and objects like personality-holding characters with motivation and volition. I feel it adds something to stories that nothing else does. I find myself returning to this trope a lot.
lea_hazel: Neuron cell (Science: Brains)
I took up some sort of weird work commitment that accounts for a few hours a month. Nothing resembling a paycheck but I am relieved at the very least at having productive occupation. The kind that I know I can stick to/see through, since I'm getting pretty tired of being mad at myself for spending too much time online (or playing games) and not enough time studying/working/writing. I hope this works out and helps keep me sharp for when I get a full-time job, and maybe even spruces up my resume. Meanwhile I have an interview/exam for a real position on Sunday morning. The holidays are fucking with my sense of time.

I have discovered myself to be too tired, or anxious, or bored to do much Icon this year. It's just... abominably crowded, and full of kids, and smells powerfully of stale sweat. /o\

My current fic assignment is behind schedule and I'm nervous as hell. There's a creeping feeling growing in the back of my mind that I might miss the deadline, which is something I have never done. Nearly happened with this year's [community profile] purimgifts, but at the end I got the last one in. Defaulting, and at such a late point, is really an awful feeling. I just-- ugh, I just have to man the hell up and write it, even if it doesn't come out as good as I hoped.

I know there's a Tumblr Savior-like app that works on AO3. How about Delicious? Is there anything that will allow me to somehow reverse filter links to prompts/fills? IDK. "Not" filtering is kind of complicated.
lea_hazel: Neuron cell (Science: Brains)
My daily words analysis claims that I feel "certain" about my writing. I wonder if it's because I worked it out and arrived at a resolution, or whether I cheated and strayed to subjects I feel more confident about.

For the record, Read more... )

Emotions are so unhelpful sometimes.

As a total tangent, I keep looking up synonyms for colors and the word "livid" keeps coming up on wildly different results. I find this more amusing than I probably should. The level of entertainment I can derive from looking through a thesaurus always impresses me.
lea_hazel: The outlook is somewhat dismal (Feel: Crash and Burn)
Did a Righteous House Cleaning event, minus mopping which is already a week overdue. And necessary, despite what I told myself when I finished the sweeping. But going through all the major, can't-live-without-them cleaning chores took a lot out of me and also took more than two hours, so I decided it was shower time and I could be reasonably proud of my accomplishments. Especially given I moved all sorts of furniture and found a civilization of dust bunnies under my bed. Next time I move, I'm getting rid of this bedframe and getting one that stands right on the floor, ISTG.

In funner news I also hanged some pictures, finally, so I can point to the positive presence in my living room, not just the lack of dust or piles of paper chores un-taken care of. The aconitum illustration I bought in Venice is above my computer (where I plan to place a desk when I finally find one). Supergirl from Dragon*Con (2011, mind) is hanging above my bed. My great-aunt's seaweed collage went on a nail that was already in, near the front door. That way I see it whenever I'm coming in and closing the door behind me. :D

I am seriously considering upgrading to a newer version of Windows. What I have right now is 7, amd I've already had a dubious acquaintance with 9. The question now is whether to go for 8 in hopes that it meets my lofty needs, or opt to wait for 10. Which may be out already, actually? I'm so out of the loop. Anyway, a massive one-sweep upgrade may be out of the question (both financially and for all the trouble it invariably causes), but maybe I can trickle them in gradually.

Kippur

Oct. 5th, 2014 12:57 pm
lea_hazel: A frowning white theater mask (Feel: Sad Face :()
Yet another Yom Kippur has passed, and I have failed to contemplate my existence any more deeply than usual. Meh.

I guess blog entries are a way of building up towards the aspiration to more difficult writing later on. I did write four days in a row and so I feel pretty good about my chances today. Which is hopeful, because I have a [community profile] femslashex assignment to complete. One which I have only barely started despite having a good idea and a decent outline.

Daily words on 750words.com are progressing pretty handily. I write about all sorts of nonsense. I swear a lot. I plan stories and daily activities. The textual analysis is pretty entertaining.

If the guy from that one job doesn't call me before the day is out I will feel extremely put upon. I can't sustain this unemployment state much longer. Especially not with Skyrim installed on my computer *le sign*.

At least Skyrim is providing a valuable distraction from certain other fandoms.
lea_hazel: The outlook is somewhat dismal (Feel: Crash and Burn)
My grocery shopping today was both more expensive and heavier than usual. Heavier is because of the various beverages. Expensive might be for the same reason. I'll have to go over the receipt. On the other hand, I just deposited a rent check and set up a transfer from my savings, so I know I can cover it. The only question that remains is whether I'll have a salary to pull at the end of October.

I have a job prospect lined up. The person in charge already told me twice that he wants me for the position. There seem to be an inordinate number of logistical difficulties. I want to be hopeful but I also want to be wary, but most of all I wish for certainty. It has come to light that the uncertainty of the human element is probably the source of most (if not all) of my anxiety.

Also, I love that it gets dark earlier and chilly late at night, but still warm and close-aired and sweaty in midday. And by love I might urgh.

In other news, Skyrim. In compliance with the mandate to be several years behind everyone when it comes to things like this, I started playing it about two weeks ago, when it came on sale for 4.99$. "Price of a cup of coffee" has become my metric for a leisure expense so small that there's no need to sweat it. And so far I've been enjoying it! Smart purchase yay.

I have the draft of a book post saved. Really should have posted it yesterday for Reading Wednesday or whatever.
lea_hazel: Neuron cell (Science: Brains)
I've had several things sitting, waiting to be polished and posted, for months. So I rallied myself and excised my perfectionism and just up and posted them.



Also I am gradually going back and tagging all the CotD works "Original Work" -- as I should have done to begin with.

Days

Sep. 22nd, 2014 11:47 pm
lea_hazel: Neuron cell (Science: Brains)
Days keep disappearing from under me. I have to try and look back and count what I did with my hours, where they all went.

I'm cooking a family dinner this week, and next week I have a job interview. Part of me would rather sit here and drink iced coffee and play Sunless Sea or Skyrim all day.
lea_hazel: The outlook is somewhat dismal (Feel: Crash and Burn)
I've been having some food issues, yesterday and today.

Read more... )

And that's all the food talk I have for one day.
lea_hazel: The outlook is somewhat dismal (Feel: Crash and Burn)
I just did the sponja of a lifetime. I'd been negligent in keeping the apartment as clean as I'd like, so I started tracking individual chores through GYD. This is good because that way the chores get divided into easy (wipe the bathroom sink) and difficult (sweep the living room incl. corners). Today I mopped, which is undoubtedly the worst chore of all. Not least because I don't do it often enough, hence the trick with th website that reminds me when I've done it last.

Now I got rid of the last cardboard boxes, and the floor is free of muddy smudges and clean at last. Ish. I mean, any second now I'm gonna start seeing little spots I missed, or little hairs that snuck by my minor compulsive tendencies. But I have gotten the place tolerably clean, even if I haven't yet quite proven that I can keep it sensibly so. Mopping every other week seems reasonable, if I sweep frequently in the meantime. Let's see if I can hold myself to that.
lea_hazel: Angry General Elodie (Genre: Games)
Broken Age: First heard of this game through [personal profile] alias_sqbr who warned that she can't explain what's great about this game without spoiling it (or something like that). This is accurate. Read more... )

Unrest: I'm not sure how I stumbled onto this game, but I'm sure glad I did. This is the game I recommended to [personal profile] marina at the birthday party a few weeks ago. The game revolves around a fictional city in a fantasy setting patterned on Indian cultural themes, and as the title implies the political unrest is the major plot element, around which all else revolves. Read more... )

Both these games are filed under the "story-driven" tag on my Steam account.

Sunless Sea: Oh, be still my heart. Speaking of setting as character, welcome to the unterzee! Fallen London's dark underground ocean, which extends from the city of London, to hell's headquarters, to the mouth of the void itself. To quote the tagline, "lose your mind; eat your crew'. Read more... )

Dark Parables series: This one is [tumblr.com profile] faejilly's fault. I will never cease to mention this. It's a series of puzzle games on a theme of twisty fairy tales, which is hard to get bored of. There's about eight or nine games and their all full-priced, so I can't quite justify playing all of them. But puzzle games are lovely and quite distracting, and the extra characterization generated by the odd crossover effect is added value.

Holy crap I rambled.

Excitement

Sep. 11th, 2014 03:57 pm
lea_hazel: Kermit: OMG YAY *flail* (Feel: OMGYAY)
I sent out a metric assload of resumes this morning and received two callbacks, the second of which just now. I had already set up an interview next week and I was now talking to someone else about the possibility of an interview, trying to be serious and professional and answer all the technical questions. All the while I'm squirming and pacing and groot!dancing with excitement.

I don't want to get my hopes up high.

But I kinda do.
lea_hazel: A frowning white theater mask (Feel: Sad Face :()
I have already broken every rule I ever set myself for being unemployed. Stayed up late playing Sunless Sea (killed another captain, too), put off sending out my CV, woke up at eleven this morning. I had planned to kick myself in the pants and take advantage of the morning to do grocery shopping and cleaning. At least yesterday I cooked and ate legitimate food, and also did a laundry. Although in fairness I had little choice, given the size of the laundry pile I brought back from Pittsburgh.

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