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lea_hazel: The Little Mermaid (Default)
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Apr. 22nd, 2014 09:51 pm
lea_hazel: Neuron cell (Science: Brains)
I'm trying really hard to be too sensible to fall in love with an apartment at first sight and rush into a contract that I might end up regretting. I keep listing all the faults, most especially the fact that it's a studio/one room. Right now I live in a one bedroom with a living room, like a fully-fledged grownup apartment. It has pros and cons. The smart money's on a studio seeming cramped after downsizing, as opposed to cozy or convenient or, IDK, easier to keep clean.

I'll look at more places tomorrow evening, but how long can I string him along before someone else snatches it up? I really don't even know.
lea_hazel: Pride flag (Politics: GLBTQ)
Since this came up in today's fan meetup, here's the deal with the "gay elf books" I was talking about: 

First: Calling them gay is a mite inaccurate. Yes, there's a same-sex romance that's a central theme in the books, but as both characters also have relationships with women, I'd personally be more inclined to call them bisexual, if at all. 

Second: The word "elf" does not appear anywhere. They are merely very long-lived, stunningly beautiful, highly magical people. Who grow no beards. And are kind of radically separatist. And like to sing beautiful sad songs about how much better things were in the good old days. And liberally sprinkle names with various apostrophes and diacritics. 

Read more... )

The Nightrunner series by Lynn Flewelling begins with a two volume story in the books Luck in the Shadows and Stalking Darkness. There are numerous other books in the series which I have only just started going through. It's worth noting that reviews for later books are mixed, and some fans who loved the early books became disenchanted with later ones. 

Crossposted to my tumblr
lea_hazel: Wonder Woman (Genre: Comics)
Everything is happening.

Thursday was a friend's birthday party, which I sadly missed due to falling asleep at ten-ish. On Friday I managed to repair a messed up situation regarding my regular prescriptions, with largely no ill-effect, which I feel I can be proud of. Then I skipped out on family dinner because it's almost Pesach and I'll be seeing everyone soon, anyway.

Speaking of Pesach, sometime in winter there was a sale at Torrid and I picked up two dressed that I've been waiting for spring to wear. One of them needed hemming, so I went to the local seamstress and promptly forgot to pick it up for about a month. At least these kinds of slipups don't prey on my mind the way they ordinarily used to do.

So many people around me are doing depression blogging. Really makes you appreciate certain things.

Tuesday is the first holiday and then on Wednesday and Thursday I have work, and possibly the local spring con in the evening. Gonna have to bite the bullet and ask my sister if I can crash at hers one night. Then again, I don't know how many of the events I'd really be interested in. At least when it comes to a workday evening.
lea_hazel: Arthritis: It does the body bad (Health: Arthritis)
It's amazing how I can leave work feeling pretty energetic and positive about the workday, and thinking about all the stuff I can do at home in the evening. And then ten minutes later as I'm walking to the bus, suddenly my mind's not distracted and all the sensations it was ignoring become deeply obvious. My back's liek a rock, I'm wiped-out tired, I can't wait to get out of my bra and I can feel my shoelaces digging into the skin on top of my feet.

I'm getting into the rhythm of the work, but today I had a couple of disappointments. Sunday marked me working there for a full month, and so far there's no hint that they're less than pleased with me, or considering ending my employment at the end of the trial period. Heaven knows they took a big risk on me, and I on them, given the weight of the work. For the moment, we seem to be working out well together.

Despite being too worn and forgetful to update my Goodreads or post about it here, I've been taking excellent advantage of my tablet as an e-reader. Between the commute and reading myself to sleep, I've made a dent in my reading plans for the year (36 books a year or 3 books a month). It helps that I've accepted leaving aside some books I'd planned to finish, and am succumbing gleefully to my brain's whims. And I started the year by getting into several different book series, so the serial continuity pushes me forward.

Miraculously, my creativity hasn't skittered to a halt. I still think about stories and am actively working on several WIPs. Just earlier today, I suddenly had a flash of inspiration for a scene to climb out of a stalled plot. Yay me.
lea_hazel: The Little Mermaid (Default)
It's been ages since I wrote for DW and I want to write a post. The problem is a lot has happened and also nothing has happened at all, so I'm drawing a blank on what to write.

I do work. I think I am going to do well at this job, although maybe it's soon to tell. And I fuck up at looking for an apartment, because that's the type of adulting I mess up and then get anxious about, which causes me to mess up more. And I have decided not to think about discrete mathematics until I have a little more time on my hands and a little space to breathe.

I've been exploiting my tablet and my Kobo app to glom books. I'd like to read three books a month this year, that's my stated goal. So I have given myself permission to read the books I'm reading, instead of getting stuck on "reading" books I never pick up (sorry, China Mieville).

Right now I'm reading the third October Daye book. Despite the background presence of an "adversarial" manly lust-interest who ticks me off by virtue of existing, I find I quite like it. Something about the atmosphere or the texture of the book satisfies some deeply-held need I've had for urban fantasy, in a way that's usually been thwarted before.

I'd like to write but when I get home I'm too tired for even low-rent porn.

Day Off

Mar. 25th, 2014 10:29 pm
lea_hazel: Neuron cell (Science: Brains)
I took a day off to go to a doctor's appointment (specialist, too difficult to reschedule, already missed one appointment) and managed to squeeze in a few other chores and also some more restful stuff. I had a nice brunch at a cafe, I read a whole bunch (Gail Carriger, Changeless) and I took an unplanned nap. I also did dishes, cycled a laundry and just now rallied my last energy to change the linen. All stuff meant to make my environment more pleasant and the rest of my work week easier.

I failed to cook as I had intended, but the vegetables I bought on Friday are still good. I compromised by laying out all of the ingredients and hoping I'd be able to muster a bit of energy tomorrow evening. I'd have liked to spend a couple of hours sinking into a game, because it really turns off my brain like nothing else, but I kind of shut down towards the evening.
lea_hazel: Neuron cell (Science: Brains)
Me at work: When I get home this evening I'm going to do so many Things!
Me at home: Welp, time to change into my PJs and flop down on the couch to watch some mediocre TV.
lea_hazel: Neuron cell (Science: Brains)
Part of the chores designed to make my life easier and less stressful during the work week is getting my shit together when it comes to money. When I took a productivity workshop at uni, they told us that tasks that are "urgent, but not important" shouldn't even be on our schedule, if we want to get to the tasks that are "important, but not urgent." Meaning, utility bills shouldn't sit around on my desk staring at me accusingly. There's no reason for them to be part of the entropic creep paperwork pile that haunts my nightmares.

A while back I put together a chart, jst to get a rough assessment of what my monthly expenditure looks like. It serves several purposes: I compare bills to it to see if they're within the norm (this is how I detect high electrical bills in the winter), and I use it as a yardstick to figure out how much is reasonable to spend on unimportant things. I have a row labeled "entertainment" that's been empty till now. Now I have a pretty good idea how much I can expect to spend on entertainment monthly, not counting unusual expenses.

I also have a better idea of what sort of rent I can afford. Now I just need to figure out taxes and pension/insurance. *le sign*
lea_hazel: The outlook is somewhat dismal (Feel: Crash and Burn)
I did a foolish thing. I let people convince me to put off looking for an apartment, and now I'm at the point where everything is chipping away at my energy, leaving me with not enough to do the things that help me keep my energy up. I've resorted to too many shortcuts and skipped too many important steps. I feel like I'm running out of safety buffer.


Mar. 15th, 2014 06:12 pm
lea_hazel: Neuron cell (Science: Brains)
Waking up at six and getting home at eight-ish is wearing on me. My family keeps telling me not to rush finding a new place to rent, but I doubt I can keep this up for a month or more. I mean. Of course I can keep it up, I just think the cost in terms of lost sleep and especially waking downtime will affect my performance and reflect poorly on me.

Meanwhile today my plans to work on my DABB story were derailed by a sudden inexplicable two hour nap (while playing Night Vale) in the background. Deadline's at the end of this week and I'm 90% sure that what I'll end up with won't qualify as a first draft. I'd like to keep working on it regardless, but for that I'd need people prompting me to continue. Much as I love fanfic and enjoy writing it, I have a limited capacity to push myself to write without encouragement, and now that most of my hours are occupied, that won't be enough.

Still. I'd really like to finish it, if only so that there can be one more bisexual vampire BDSM A/U femslash fanfic out there.
lea_hazel: The outlook is somewhat dismal (Feel: Crash and Burn)
Praise His noodly appendage, the work week is over.

A week plus a day, and today I had the first incident of a homophobic slur. Yay?

Ugh, No

Mar. 12th, 2014 10:07 pm
lea_hazel: The outlook is somewhat dismal (Feel: Crash and Burn)
Ugh, I do not want to be that person, but I think I might have to default on [community profile] purimgifts And with two out of three treats completed and posted, too. The deadline is today and works start being revealed on Saturday, and I'm just.... ugh. What a stupid way to default.

Nice Things

Mar. 9th, 2014 08:57 pm
lea_hazel: Neuron cell (Science: Brains)
Today was my second day at my new job. It's a good job with good prospects, and a good office with good people. While it's soon to tell, I have a good feeling about this arrangement lasting past the test period. The commute is long, but temporary. Once I feel more comfortable, I'll be starting to look for an apartment in the area(ish).

The weather turned on me. I wanted to maintain the illusion of wearing nice(r) clothes for a bit before I backslid into jeans and baggy tees, but I was geared for spring and all my longer, warmer clothes are either super-casual, extremely baggy, or both. Especially long-sleeved shirts. It's not terribly cold, but it is a bit rainy, which calls for a long-sleeved shirt under a raincoat. I have the latter, little short on the former. My sweatshirts are ridiculous.

It's an adjustment period. I predict a lot of writing fic on the bus.


Mar. 5th, 2014 02:45 pm
lea_hazel: Angry General Elodie (Feel: RAEG)
Orphan Black comes back in a month and a half.

That is a very good think to dwell on, as an alternative to the way I was fucked over that will probably trip up my week and maybe next week, too.

I'm really looking forward to watching more Orphan Black. I think the second season is going to be very interesting.

How did I not have a tag for this until just now? Clearly I should be blogging about TV more often. Tumblr is hardly a sufficient platform for a show that invites meta as much as OB does.


Mar. 4th, 2014 08:47 pm
lea_hazel: Pride flag (Politics: GLBTQ)

4537 / 10000 words. 45% done!

I'm going to have so much less time to write, soon, and the draft is due 20/3. I might not be able to fit in a more actiony plot like I'd intended. Oh well, at least I'm writing a story about bisexual dominatrix vampires. Not actually a spoiler I suppose, I mean what else was I gonna write about?


Mar. 3rd, 2014 02:19 pm
lea_hazel: Kermit: OMG YAY *flail* (Feel: OMGYAY)
Time to rethink the structuring of my days, weeks, months (foreseeable future).

Life stuff )

I will need to rethink/reprioritize so many things. This is what I wanted, right?
lea_hazel: Kermit: OMG YAY *flail* (Feel: OMGYAY)
You know those memes that go around periodically about posting fanfic and irrationally hoping to get instant feedback? Today I crossposted four ficlets from [community profile] fic_promptly comments to AO3. Within three hours they all had hits and kudos, and I got a gushing comment on an older fic, too. One of my favorites, in fact (even if some days I can't stand to look at it).

My apartment needs a thorough cleaning but I don't feel like doing it.

I've decided that it's time to give up on doing a blackout for [community profile] genprompt_bingo. It was a nice thought, and hypothetically feasible, but I just don't have that kind of attention span right now. I have too many projects running in parallel. Meanwhile my big bang piece has reached the interesting part and now I get to decide how intereting it's going to be.

Lots going on. Family stuff, possible job prospect. Frankly I'd rather keep blogging about fanfic and avoid thinking about it for a couple of hours.


Mar. 1st, 2014 09:09 pm
lea_hazel: Angry General Elodie (Genre: Games)

3588 / 10000 words. 36% done!

I broke through the barrier that blocked me for a week. I should be just up to the good parts. I'd intended to have a complete first draft by the end of February, but at least I'm moving forward.
lea_hazel: Neuron cell (Science: Brains)
Things I did today (not a productivity list, just a way of keeping track of how I filled the hours):

  • Woke up late.

  • Showered and washed my hair.

  • Spent the rest of the morning looking at job listings (no hits).

  • Read several humorous articles.

  • Listened to music.

  • Cooked and ate a hot lunch.

  • Finished my second (out of three) first draft [community profile] purimgifts treat.

  • Ogled writing prompts.

  • Watched three TV episodes.

  • Googled for ADHD resources.

  • Reblogged some stuff on Tumblr.

  • Read about 90 pages of The Queen of Attolia and posted about it to GoodReads.

  • Set up a phone interview.

  • Walked to the shopping center and got myself a hot cocoa to go.


lea_hazel: The Little Mermaid (Default)

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