Good Weekend, All in All
Saturday, 9 March 2013 23:22![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lea_hazelFriday was the big AO3 Israeli fandom meetup. It was completely awesome.
There was squee, and cuddling, and brainstorming of cracktastic fic. I found myself in the exotic position of being the only Homestuck fan in the room, and came very close to explaining Homestuck to people. I also expounded at length about my fannish history, which I now realize is a lot longer than I thought! I have in fact been actively reading and writing fanfic for over a decade. Wow.
The usual argument about gen vs. porn surfaced for a bit, and I had to admit to being almost universally bored by male characters. Of course everyone wanted to pimp their shiniest fandoms and there were recs all around. Hopefully the second meetup at the end of the month will also pan out and we can start doing this regularly. :D I don't know if every meetup will be this rowdy (I both howled with laughter and screeched with fangirl!rage at different intervals) but one can only hope? Fandom is kind of my excuse to be effusive and unrestrained, instead of using up energy to try to keep a good face on things.
Anyway it's wonderful to discover that we can talk about fannish things in that particularly Israeli way and have people get it. :)
I don't remember if I mentioned here, or only on Tumblr, but I downloaded a program called Twine that manages and compiles interactive fiction into hypertext games. I'm working on my first game and it's going well.
I wanted so badly to play around with this new toy. At first I thought I would just start writing and the story would come together eventually, but of course that kind of slapdash thing wasn't really enough to keep my interest. For a while I weighed a bunch of different story options in my mind: some sort of DA fanfic, or fanfic for something else, a fantasy-type story about alchemy, another thing about a magical prison, some other story ideas that have languished indefinitely in my mind.
Once I finally decided which story I would write, everything clicked into place. When I decided to include some of my original poetry inside the game, I went over my original writing folder and began to realize that I've been unconsciously working on this story for at least a year. Well, not exactly, because I didn't know it would be a work of prose fiction, let alone an interactive game written in HTML, but this has been a long time coming. These themes and ideas have been building up gradually for a long time.
Right now the game is consuming my mind more than any fanfic I'm halfway through, and it's progressing nicely. Soon I will need people to test it out for me both for technical and content things. I'm super pumped and also pretty nervous. But it's all good. It's good to be excited about something.
Fanfic is hard. I have two ongoing projects that I swore up and down I would finish before I progress to the rest of my WIP folder, because I don't want my attention to be too scattered. That way lies madness, and fics languishing forveer incomplete.
But it turns out I only really know how to do the "hurt" in hurt/comfort. It came up on Friday, actually. I like to dig myself into complex situations, but then because they're essentially unfixable I have to either accept the unresolved state of the narrative, or cheat. This time I can't in good conscience cure my protagonist. What I need is a way to inject just enough emotional resolution into her life that the situation feels somewhat more hopeful at the end of the story than at the beginning. And then hope that this is remotely satisfying to the reader.
I'd love to just throw a cuddly elf at her and wave a wand and say, "And then everything was magically better." But as it turns out I'm too old for that shit. I no longer believe the story premise that the heroine gets to dump all her emotional issues at somebody else's feet and that's fine. It doesn't work and it's not healthy, and worst of all it's not satisfying to me as a story anymore. Sometimes I almost miss being sixteen, when shit like this made perfect sense to me. I look at the majority of DA fanfic and I can't help but think, "I would have eaten this up with a spoon as a teen."
Man, fuck growing up. And fuck my id vortex and all the neediness it pukes up.
The ceiling light in my living room crapped out again. I really just need to get a standing lamp. In better news I had a guy clean and fix my computer, which is a vast improvement. The inside of the box was piled with dust, it was so gross.
There was squee, and cuddling, and brainstorming of cracktastic fic. I found myself in the exotic position of being the only Homestuck fan in the room, and came very close to explaining Homestuck to people. I also expounded at length about my fannish history, which I now realize is a lot longer than I thought! I have in fact been actively reading and writing fanfic for over a decade. Wow.
The usual argument about gen vs. porn surfaced for a bit, and I had to admit to being almost universally bored by male characters. Of course everyone wanted to pimp their shiniest fandoms and there were recs all around. Hopefully the second meetup at the end of the month will also pan out and we can start doing this regularly. :D I don't know if every meetup will be this rowdy (I both howled with laughter and screeched with fangirl!rage at different intervals) but one can only hope? Fandom is kind of my excuse to be effusive and unrestrained, instead of using up energy to try to keep a good face on things.
Anyway it's wonderful to discover that we can talk about fannish things in that particularly Israeli way and have people get it. :)
I don't remember if I mentioned here, or only on Tumblr, but I downloaded a program called Twine that manages and compiles interactive fiction into hypertext games. I'm working on my first game and it's going well.
I wanted so badly to play around with this new toy. At first I thought I would just start writing and the story would come together eventually, but of course that kind of slapdash thing wasn't really enough to keep my interest. For a while I weighed a bunch of different story options in my mind: some sort of DA fanfic, or fanfic for something else, a fantasy-type story about alchemy, another thing about a magical prison, some other story ideas that have languished indefinitely in my mind.
Once I finally decided which story I would write, everything clicked into place. When I decided to include some of my original poetry inside the game, I went over my original writing folder and began to realize that I've been unconsciously working on this story for at least a year. Well, not exactly, because I didn't know it would be a work of prose fiction, let alone an interactive game written in HTML, but this has been a long time coming. These themes and ideas have been building up gradually for a long time.
Right now the game is consuming my mind more than any fanfic I'm halfway through, and it's progressing nicely. Soon I will need people to test it out for me both for technical and content things. I'm super pumped and also pretty nervous. But it's all good. It's good to be excited about something.
Fanfic is hard. I have two ongoing projects that I swore up and down I would finish before I progress to the rest of my WIP folder, because I don't want my attention to be too scattered. That way lies madness, and fics languishing forveer incomplete.
But it turns out I only really know how to do the "hurt" in hurt/comfort. It came up on Friday, actually. I like to dig myself into complex situations, but then because they're essentially unfixable I have to either accept the unresolved state of the narrative, or cheat. This time I can't in good conscience cure my protagonist. What I need is a way to inject just enough emotional resolution into her life that the situation feels somewhat more hopeful at the end of the story than at the beginning. And then hope that this is remotely satisfying to the reader.
I'd love to just throw a cuddly elf at her and wave a wand and say, "And then everything was magically better." But as it turns out I'm too old for that shit. I no longer believe the story premise that the heroine gets to dump all her emotional issues at somebody else's feet and that's fine. It doesn't work and it's not healthy, and worst of all it's not satisfying to me as a story anymore. Sometimes I almost miss being sixteen, when shit like this made perfect sense to me. I look at the majority of DA fanfic and I can't help but think, "I would have eaten this up with a spoon as a teen."
Man, fuck growing up. And fuck my id vortex and all the neediness it pukes up.
The ceiling light in my living room crapped out again. I really just need to get a standing lamp. In better news I had a guy clean and fix my computer, which is a vast improvement. The inside of the box was piled with dust, it was so gross.
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2013-03-10 15:48 (UTC)The AO3 meetup sounds lovely! I hope you'll get to do it more regularly!
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