My feelings are contingent on the season.
Monday, 30 April 2012 12:04![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lea_hazelLike most people, the seasons and the weather affect my emotional life dramatically.
In the winter there is less light and I am frequently listless, bored, tend more to think of things as pointless and uninteresting. Not a good time to start new projects, a time when it's very hard to celebrate or convince myself to leave the house, and/or socialize. I am quite insistent upon New Year's Eve, partly for this reason. Hannukah is too fake a holiday to fill this function.
In the summer, my anger problem, always bad, gets even worse. This is also a social thing. Hot sweaty days are widely regarded as demonic where I live, easily capable of transforming the most gentle being into a raging douchebag over the slightest provocation.
In transitional seasons I suffer from allergies. Frequently it's hard for me to breathe, both during the day and during the night. Sometimes I sleep very poorly and awake often. This is when I have by far the most anxiety/panic attacks. Breathing trouble is plenty, it makes me nervous and that makes everything else feel worse. Sometimes I get chest pain. One frustrating thing about it is that I know it's anxious pain, but I don't know how to stop it.
In the winter there is less light and I am frequently listless, bored, tend more to think of things as pointless and uninteresting. Not a good time to start new projects, a time when it's very hard to celebrate or convince myself to leave the house, and/or socialize. I am quite insistent upon New Year's Eve, partly for this reason. Hannukah is too fake a holiday to fill this function.
In the summer, my anger problem, always bad, gets even worse. This is also a social thing. Hot sweaty days are widely regarded as demonic where I live, easily capable of transforming the most gentle being into a raging douchebag over the slightest provocation.
In transitional seasons I suffer from allergies. Frequently it's hard for me to breathe, both during the day and during the night. Sometimes I sleep very poorly and awake often. This is when I have by far the most anxiety/panic attacks. Breathing trouble is plenty, it makes me nervous and that makes everything else feel worse. Sometimes I get chest pain. One frustrating thing about it is that I know it's anxious pain, but I don't know how to stop it.
