The Original Fiction Dilemma Rears Its Ugly Head

For years I've been trying to put my mind to an original fiction project. I want to be a novelist. I want to tell stories. My mind is full of extrapolations and ideas and allegories that I want to explore more deeply. I'm always up to my eyeballs in story ideas, because every time I'm dissatisfied with a piece of fiction my first thought is, "No, no, no, here's how I would do it..."

That urge never really goes away. It's also not completely satisfied by fanfic. ( Cut for long, long rambling about my writing mental blocks. )

Oh, I made myself sad.