Complacence

...And we're back to normal again. Where by normal I mean, "I can't tell if I'm anxious and need to relax, or complacent and I need to be more alert/nervous/watchful.

Tomorrow I have another job interview, the second job I'm interviewing for since I started looking in August. I have a thorough list of things that need to be done before then, but definite items ("make a breakfast sandwich") are easier to handle than vague ones ("be ready for the test"). I'm breaking the cardinal rule that I learned in time management: only deal in concrete tasks. And I procrastinated.

Now, intellectually I'm pretty sure that my level of familiarity with the subjects I'm being tested on will be enough. I was tested last time, on many of the same subjects, and I did well. More revising will probably not improve my performance significantly.

But. But mis-assessing my preparedness for exams is one of the main reasons I am where I am, as opposed to searching for a bioinf job with my shiny new degree. Not that I necessarily feel like that job search would have been quicker, more efficient, or even necessarily less frustrating. Basically, this entry is all me venting. Talking about anxiety tends to destring it a bit.

It's all coming back to me, really. I think I'll do some Ruby stuff to tamp down on the brainfail. And then reread my own fanfic.