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Fortress
In my fortress, a lot of things that are normally very difficult and anxiety-inducing were suddenly easy and routine to the point of not disrupting my emotions at all.
Of course, they were that way because I made them that way. I made it my mission to identify these points of conflict between myself and basic self-care, and find effective ways of coping with them that would withstand all but the worst of days. I got a washer and dryer and I could get a laundry in and ready to wear the next day no matter how late it was.
Moving means that I need to rebuild some of these, let's say, battlements. The new place isn't really a fortress, yet. Actually, that's the main downside of renting - it probably never will be, not like I got used to.
The upside is that I'm doing much better now. Between the antidepressants and all the work I did, plus the huge improvement in my personal circumstances, now I'm in a position to apply the mechanisms directly to myself, rather than exclusively to my environment. The first one, not surprisingly, is "eat something." Laundry is a lot less impossible once you've stopped catastrophizing it.
Anyway, I don't have a therapist to brag to, so you get to hear about it instead.
Of course, they were that way because I made them that way. I made it my mission to identify these points of conflict between myself and basic self-care, and find effective ways of coping with them that would withstand all but the worst of days. I got a washer and dryer and I could get a laundry in and ready to wear the next day no matter how late it was.
Moving means that I need to rebuild some of these, let's say, battlements. The new place isn't really a fortress, yet. Actually, that's the main downside of renting - it probably never will be, not like I got used to.
The upside is that I'm doing much better now. Between the antidepressants and all the work I did, plus the huge improvement in my personal circumstances, now I'm in a position to apply the mechanisms directly to myself, rather than exclusively to my environment. The first one, not surprisingly, is "eat something." Laundry is a lot less impossible once you've stopped catastrophizing it.
Anyway, I don't have a therapist to brag to, so you get to hear about it instead.